Title for this episode: Oh My God, He's Talking about Religion
I was mulling over potential topics for the podcast this weekend, and I decided that I needed to begin at the beginning. Religion/spirituality is at the core of who I am. It's probably neurotic, a little nutty, over the top and disproportionate. Yes, it is all of those things, but it is also fundamentally me. If I am trying to find my voice, slay fears, unblock myself, it started to make a lot of sense to me that I should explore this thing inside of me.
No one wants to talk religion. Talking about religion in public makes me very uncomfortable. Hell, talking about religion at church makes me fairly uncomfortable. But if progress only gets made outside of your comfort zone . . .
I like to think that my worldview, my beliefs, are fairly inoffensive. That's not by conscious design (I hope), but I try to be aware of how my words and actions affect others, and one of my prime directives is kindness. Now that is strange, because I can have a bit of an edge, and I like to poke people, but paradoxically I want to be nice to people, and for them to feel validated by me. Look, I don't get it either, and I don't have enough money to pay a shrink to sort it out, so we're all going to have to deal with it.
Anyway—I hate keeping all of my thoughts on God inside, afraid to share them with people, so here they are, uncorked for you in this podcast.
Monday, February 23, 2015
Friday, February 20, 2015
Well, I'm a podcaster now. I published an MP3 to the web using a podcasting site, so that makes it true. Which is a bit like telling someone how to get to the local 7/11, and then calling yourself a teacher.
This podcast is for an audience of one. It's not even for that many people. I'm just using it as a tool. I want to stop feeling blocked and scared and dumb when I sit down to write. I've made a lot of progress over the last year, but I still have a long way to go. My main problem boils down to this: I feel like I don't have anything to say. The way I sometimes get over this is by writing a lot and a lot and a lot until something good finally comes out. But it's hard to stay on myself.
I have always toyed with the idea of having a podcast. So the day finally arrived.
It's just a tool. I need to break down the internal censor that says "Nope, you can't think of anything good to say. And that thing you just said--not that good." And you don't break the censor by defying logic, buckling down, and eking out some clever words. You break the censor by overwhelming it, overloading it, until it drowns in the flood of your words.
So another medium opens more possibilities. I am trying to refrain from telling you that it sucks, and don't listen to it. It is what it is. I am beyond an amateur--I'm a podcasting infant--no, a podcasting fetus (which is, of course, controversial relative to the pro-life/pro-choice debate, so let's leave it at podcasting infant). I am attempting this to try and better myself. I expect to have five faithful listeners, most, if not all, blood-related. You know what?--that's just fine.
Have a listen. You can click the following to download the audio: The Blocked Artist, Episode #1: Setting the Table
Or you can go here to stream: http://jdspot.podomatic.com/entry/2015-02-20T17_47_06-08_00
To quote one of my favorite artists: Don't say I didn't, say I didn't warn ya.