Saturday, February 25, 2012

News You Can Use

The biggest scandal of 2012 will be that you and I were willing participants in our own demise. Instead of learning, loving, trying, failing and living, we will sit, watch, drink, quit and/or acquiesce. The path of least resistance will be followed, it needs no ad campaign.

I hope we're all prone to fits of rage against the tyranny against the status quo, but the true soul who makes a life of it will rarely run into their equal.

"Jason, shut up and speak for yourself. Your own proclivity for overstatement and drama is something I wish you were prone to fits of rage against." --My response to myself.

See, that's what happens when you try to speak up.

A Few Injections

Sometimes all I know is that I want words to spill onto the page. Now, if I knew what they were supposed to be then I'd really be cooking, but that is rarely the case. So here are three thoughts of the moment. Not worth much. But they're words on the page--most of the time that's all I've got.

The thing that burns with radiance is my inability. While some might focus on what they've got, I can only see what I don't have. Oh woe is me. Please burn the earth down for me.

Like Ignatius J Reilly, and the one who preceded him, Quixote, I am at full scale war with modernity.

If my son rages against the mini-death that is a nap much longer I will tear my garment and adorn myself in sack cloth and ashes, weeping for the cacophony of shards of sanity that is my present lot in life.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Social Calisthenics

Funny how thoughts will steal upon you from nowhere. Actually, I think that is the rule, not the exception.

All of a sudden I was thinking about two of the biggest disasters to happen to me in the last 18 months. And from that a strong word of advice emerged:

The best thing you can possibly do for the improvement of your human/social relations is have someone who means something to you disagree with you profoundly.

And then sit in that disagreement.

Let the unease and insecurity wrap around you like a sopping blanket, and don't shrug it off. Just sit in it.

Work with it. Fight and struggle with it--but don't run.

Do anything you want--kick, scream and cuss--just don't run.

If you sit with it long enough, the answer will emerge. One of you will be right, one of your wrong--more usually some sort of combination of those two. Despite what you think, the world will move on, even if you're the one more in the wrong.

But if you can withstand that pain you'll be sacrificing for the greater good. And you'll be a much more socially healthy and enjoyable person.

That's my theory, anyway.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

A Sentence

Here is a thought from my 9 months ago self:

"In my more sober moments I worry that my cynicism and sarcasm can get in the way of aliveness. I want those sober moments to increase, gain some momentum, and maybe roll this soul over."

Ok so it was two sentences, but "A Sentence" has more poetic resonance for me--so your petty, neatnik logic has been overruled. 

Monday, February 6, 2012

Christianity & Jesus Aren't Necessarily the Same

Every once in awhile I read something and I say, "Yep, that's what I've been trying to say."

You'll see attempts to be as clear and profound as this blog post in my own writing, but I haven't achieved it. I wish everyone would read this and take a big long think for awhile.

Wednesday, February 1, 2012


What does it say about me that, at some point or another in the midst of most of my relationships, I have taken time to consider whether or not this person I was dealing with was a sociopath?

If it helps I've also considered myself as a possible case.

But then I get weepy over a long distance calling commercial and know in my heart of hearts that I'm not such a bad guy.

Sorrow & Chagrin

If I ever needed a reminder of my voluminous failures in this life (and generally I don't), I would just go to my blog stats and look at the number one search terms are that have led people to my blog.

Dwarfing all other internet searches, 374 to the next closest, 64, is this:

"chili cook off flyer"

Is that my mission in a phrase? Does that capture the essence of what I've set out to do with this blog?

The results speak for themselves, I suppose.

For kicks:

 Search Keywords

chili cook off flyer
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we need the eggs
drunk midgets
woman ripped in half
chili contest
chili cook off flyers
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